Enjoying Life

I had a dream last night. Ferris Bueler was trying to teach me to enjoy life. And what did I do?... I tried. Yes, I tried to hard. I got on a motorcycle and I stalled 3 times. I was TRYING to enjoy life and found it difficult. When I woke up it dawned on me. Enjoying life ought to e easy. But also, when life is difficult, it is so because I am making it difficult for myself. I meditated today and feel quite happy just to be alive and breathing, to be healthy, to have a frige full of food and friends whom I love and love me dearly. For love, I am most thankful.

Meditation (continued)

Stretch first.Sit comfortably.Take deep breaths.Relax.Imagine relaxation taking place in waves... top to bottom.Inhale - wisdom.Exhale - anxiety.Inhale - faith.Exhale - fear.Inhale - love.Exhale - anger.Appreciate every breath.Appreciate the peaceful quiet state of your mind.Appreciate any New Understanding or the preparation for New Understanding.Appreciate life.Dream.Live your dreams.

Meditation (How a Jedi lives life)

Meditation: ANXIETY:Since I was little, I've always been called "a procrastinator, a lazy-dazy, a daydreamer, etc." And when I got to college, I was tagged with the ADD title. And I realize that most of my life, I've always believed that it does not matter WHEN things happens so much as THAT they happen. Defeating anxiety is a puzzle and I see many different strategies for diffusing anxiety, (for example daydreamers play through every imaginable scenario for a situation and spend much time meditating). I shall do this but I also have a secret weapon... FAITH. It somehow stimulates my intuition. I'm not saying that "FAITH works" because putting FAITH in FAITH is testing faith... which does not work out in our favor. But when we put our faith in the right place there is no anxiety. I can't say what "the right place" is. Deep down, we know what's right in each situation, because we are not afraid of the truth. FEAR:Dreamers have no fear. Fear of the unknown is difused by UNDERSTANDING. "Seek and ye shall find." We must admit when we are nieve and must quickly seek the missing knowldge. Also, we must always look at things/situations for what they ARE and not WHAT they seem to be. TRUTH is our greatest weapon. We are as proud as we are humble. We are as strong as we are weak. Therefore, we must never ever be afraid of the truth. ANGER:Typically, anger towards friends is the result of ENVY. And anger towrds enemies is the result of DISGUST or DISAPPROVAL. Typically. In any case...We should not envy those who disgust us becuase they live in thier own hell. Injustice angers me, so the emotion WILL and DOES exist but it can be difused with RATIONAL THOUGHT. Furthermore, ACTING IN ANGER is never to occur unless the ACT is MEDITATION. Regarding friends... True friends do not have anger towrd one another. Friends live in peace and communicate openly and honestly if disapproval is met. For example, intervention is a tool in the event of a disapproval. With NO ANXIETY, NO FEAR, and NO ANGER, we are "chill" to the max. It's a great place to be. Living a good life is as easy as it is difficult and it is as difficult as it is easy. *tink"Be thine own judge first."

Update

My last post was a long time ago (2004) so I have updated my LJ profile. Please check it out.

Wow, so I gue...

Wow, so I guess the last time I posted was May. The months pass so quickly. People ask me, "how long have you been out of school?" or "how long have you known this person?" and I really can't say. When someone says "that clock is wrong," it doesn't bother me. I don't really need to know. The longer I can go without needing to know the real time, the happier I am. Anyway...I have been thinking about what it means to live a life that is good. I'm talking about self-reflection and character. When we fuck up, we think about these things (morals and ethics) ... but for how long, really? I mean we aren't always honest with ourselves, so how seriosly do we take our self-judgement. Self judgement should be our very first practice. How can two men live in peace if both men judge each other or if one man judges the other? Too much attention is payed to fairness and not enough attention is payed to truth. To thine own self be true. -ShakespeareSo if we are true to ourselves, then what do we have to fear? Nothing. Yet, too often we fuck up because we are afraid of the truth. Being lied to does not permit us to lie, nor does being cheated, permit us to cheat, so long as we are our own judges first. I had to put these thoughts down in live journal before I forgot them. Plus, I know that I will need to take a good look at this again in the future... like before I visit my parents again. These kinds of thoughts are very easily forgotten. That's it for now. Maybe I'll rant again in another few months. *tink

new LJ wallpaper

Hi people...The wallpaper is new. It's Radiohead artwork. Yeah. *tink

spring break...

Hey,So we got our internet connection a while ago, but I still never got connected. I gotta get some wires or a wireless thingie or something. But I can get onto LJ from time to time. Oh and I went to Atlantic City this week which kicked ass. The casino's are really kinda depressing and dull at 3AM on weekdays, but my friends and I won some money so we're all happy. With cable now hooked up, all my friends and I watched Adult Swim on Sunday in my room. I feel so special! Yey! What else... oh yeah, our first house party (last week) was a great success. It fuckin rocked! That's all I want to say for now. Peace!*tink